Fearless

Today is the 5th month you no longer text me nor call me. I choose to and of course I have to bear with my decision. This is not usual but I'm living with it. My last text to you was unexpectedly and it was a very tricky emotion suffering contained by my heart. 

Taking a deep breath and walk through the doors in the morning, you are not next to me. I try to stay positive, cheerful as usual, but I don't feel fresh about everyday. Now that I'm deserted sentimentally,  everything was wrong, I look unfathomable, did I say something too honest? Make you run and hide.

My hand a liitle shaky, but I'm fearless. I don't know how to get this situation better but I have to learn and cultivate myself to speak out more and be open to myself and friends.
  
Happy Holiday! 

Love... Danze 

10 Years Achievements...

Danze Career Achievement 10 years...

2010:
Head of Finance (Kaltim), Senior Manager Grade, IMC Plantations - annual income:RM240,000

2009:
Head of Finance (Kaltim), Manager Grade, TSH Resources Bhd - annual income:RM192,000

2008:
Asset Management System Accountant, Manager Grade, AES Climate Solutions - annual income:RM120,000

2007:
Accounting Manager, Manager Grade, United Engineer (UE) Singapore Ltd. - annual income:RM105,840

2005:
Accounting Manager, Manager Grade, Southern Group Bhd - annual income:RM78,000

2004:
Accountant, Manager Grade, Menta Constructions Sdn Bhd - annual income:RM43,200

2002:
Internal Audit Executives, Unico Desa Plantations Bhd - annual income:RM26,400

2001:
Senior Auditor, RSMi Robert Teo, Kuan & Co. - annual income:RM19,200

2000:
Audit Assistant, RSMi Robert Teo, Kuan & Co. - annual income:RM14,400

Quit

After all, I make a pronouncement  to renounce or vacate my position as Regional Head of Finance. It was a difficult decision personally, as this is my 10th years of anniversary. Wow...

As such, recently I was promoted to be Regional Financial Controller. This was my highest achievement to date. It was an honor personally to me and I wish I could assumed the position. However, at this point in time, I am seeking something higher than my career, a balance in life. My dedication to my career over the last 10 years was tremendously overwhelm. 

Separately, a Singapore based multi national corporation approaches me to assume the Senior Regional Head of Finance post with a reasonably attractive packages and offering me a balance work culture. I hope this stride assemble a new whole opportunity for me to further discover my newly established sanctuary of balance life with peace and calm atmosphere.

The expectation will indisputably high as usual, working with various group of people and most notably is to revamp the group financial reporting structure. 

LoL... Let's see how it turns out later. I remain happy and being glad to be who I am today. No regrets!

Bless All...

J101 BOOT AX

Perfectly cut!... so straight, so slim, and it's simply perfectly cut. I bought a newest jeans from AX Armani Exchange. J101 BOOT, Low Rise Boot Cut.The light urban destruction jeans have high-contrast whiskering details on front and back pockets with hand applied destruction details for a perfect blend of every day style with every night attitude.

features the new A|X signature trim

red thread accents

finish: stone washing, hand sanding, hand-applied potassium whiskers, swift tacking & stretch

This definitely adds into my 2010 Denim collections.

 

Chilled Out at Penang (Year 2008)

The G Hotel Penang

my All New Camry 2.4V (front view)

the rear view All New Camry 2.4V

famously Penang char koay teow

chilling at G hotel (Penang)

 

my lovely sister at the bar

Penang Moment (Year 2008)

I Didn't Like What I Saw

SIXTEEN MONTHS AGO, I really couldn't believe some of the remarks. There are worries that I couldn't meet the debt repayment, as the share market dropped. A lot of people trying to take advantage of the situation, coming to me, there were banks that offers to re-finance with this sort of terms which were totally unacceptable. 

I run a property investment business, now for over 10 years, which I make a small investment to acquire a unit of apartment of RM120K way back in year 2000. Only in year 2008 I decided to expand the business to further acquire a penthouse in one of the prime location in Petaling Jaya, and a unit of studio condo in Subang Jaya, with total new investment value of RM1 million. 

As a consolation for myself, I changed my sedan to All New Camry 2.4V. It was the most toughest business decision so far, through undisclosed fresh financing, eventually every pieces fall into a right place. 

The economy has since stabilized, and my income were up significantly in mid 2009 and further 5% growth in October 2009. In Feb 2010, the reserved fund were up and construction work of the new properties are in progress with 40% completion. 

Many complaints the risk I am taking is too great and unacceptable. Some are worried that I will collapse financially, especially my family members.

"Going through a period like that is making me rethink my strategy and game plan. After the crisis, I took a hard look at myself and I have to confess, I didn't like what I saw."  

I hope the construction of Park 51, Penthouse unit and SOHO studio condominium unit to complete much earlier. This will put me in advantage in terms of interest saving and I can initiate my plan. Right now I would not be looking anywhere else, but to focus on the existing investment. The returns may not looks promising yet, but I see demands will be definitely more than supply in the next 5 years. 


Instead of expanding business in Kuala Lumpur, I am prospecting Indonesia market. There are several talks and some parties approaches me for huge rental business contract. Anytime soon, I am planning to establish an overseas company with foreign shareholders in Indonesia. Kalimantan itself is a heaven for many type of business and one of my favorite business, rental business. I hope the new business venture will kick off soon.

Lights Off

Losing you is so achingly painstaking. You should have knew it, that our relationship is not working to either you and me. When the lights off, you can't see me, and I can't see you. We are just losing ourselves, to the plastic love. You have so much control and expectation on me, whilst, I am sick and tired to satisfy and meet all your condition. I can't see at all, what is the lifetime of

I could not let this go on, coz this is driving me crazy. No doubt you have a very nice and big heart but I don't understand why I can't feel it, I can't see it, I just can't. You should see how I see you, and I can't see no more now. My brain is poisoned, bruised, and switched off. Gradually I'm losing you...

My Favorite Salon Peter F. Saerang

Year 2007-2008, my hair stylish from Peter F. Saerang, Plaza Indonesia. My hair was very well taken care of and it was the confident I have with the hair stylish,Tori. He has been handling all my request and had the finest haircut and treatment. Most important he understand my hair structure and the shape of my head. 

I would say the best in the country. Whenever I am in Indonesia, I will make my way to the Plaza Indonesia Peter F. Saerang for haircut. As far as I have to take a flight to Jakarta, I will do so just for a haircut. 

Ok, I will share some photos of the beautiful salon, enjoy.

Reception desk, warm and comfy.

Front entrance, classic

The cutting area

Well, do you wonder when I'm in Malaysia, where will be my favorite salon? Find out soon...

The Bondi (My Comfy Resident in Jakarta)

 

9 Years

As much as Imperfect Boy celebrates the 9 years of living in the heartbreak and today, I had a beautiful lunch at Chiang Palace Restaurant at Bumi Senyiur, a small celebration with my team members, emotionally I felt being went through so much. How hard was it to revisit what were clearly some painful times?

You know what? It was easier to revisit the painful times because they're over and I wanted to let out how I was feeling. And in a way, letting it out when there's also humor attached to it is more therapeutic.

Making myself feel nice, being alone awakes my thoughts, gardening, are my new hobby. I am not impressed or obsessed with love, making love, but it seems I like to gain more space and the matter of fact I am happier, I just want to stay healthier.

Today, one of my assistant asked, you work very hard, did you ever get to rest and breath?

I do sometimes and it's better now because I have a place to live. In Balikpapan, I have decided to take a retreat in Novotel, which is one my favorite hotel, I can do and pamper myself and Aston Resort to have a small chat with friends by the seaside open lounge, and I think it's cool. It is nice and relaxing, calm experience and experience solitude.

Reminisced The Scene

Nights of fighting the urge to stray from the rightful path, finally saw defeat as I now inched forward into the embraced of the rainbow life, vulnerable, confused. Yesterday night, I closed my eyes tight, imagining what the sight would be if you did not call me, did not search for me, did not even care about me. There was no plan to meet, to reconcile. This strange, peculiar act of saying hi again, this singular moment of eager anticipation of landfall, with all its unspeakable, undercurrent of guilt and fun.

I can't remember what trigger it to be exact, but I have to say that the controlled expression and emotion didn't quite go well with me. I looked away, towards the glass window just meter away, and reminisced the scene about 2 years back.

I don't know if I can face it again to change my life...

Good Day Everyone

Hi everyone... It gives me so much pleasure to come back and share with you my most up close personal experiences. Indeed after my last blog, theqgboy, I went for a long break and did came back last year to write for awhile but did not make it through, or I should say a hit like my first blog. 

Someone has given me the courage to come back to write again and I guess, I have to mention he is ff. It has been a very long since my last exit and there are so many changes and experiences gain throughout the last 3 years. Closer to my heart now is nothing more than my family. 

My family has been going through a very mix and though relationship and I am lucky to have a good relationship with my mom and sis. So much I devoted my love to my mom, who has been giving me so much morale support. 

My home, has been transform from an empty to full of colors and beautiful objects and furnitures from all around the world. So much that I would be sharing with you, what I have got for my home, furnitures from Italy, Pakistan, China and etc... What I can say is just one word, "lively".

On personal, I have gain so much weight, something that I still find it hard to accept but surely I will get back to gym. This is my commitment! lol... Besides keeping healthy, and more attractive, do you know that I like to sleep around in different hotels? Well, I guess, this is something I have been doing for the past 6 months, and I really enjoy doing it. I have more crazy stuff and activities to come. 

My friends, this is interesting. I'm taking my time to sort out my friends, and of course, many was drop from my list and many new friends coming into my life. They are so much different now and I really feel like a reborn child. How I look at friendship changed and probably this is what everyone will evolve at certain age of life. 

My favorite drink, well, I love both tea and coffee. It's like yin and yang. My tea mate and coffee mate was entirely different group.I have tea from different countries, Malaysia, China, and Japan. Tea is doing so much great work to calm me down, especially when I'm in the frustration mood. Coffee's role is to boost my energy and able to keep me focus when I'm at work. 

My favorite food, I just love to explore different exotic food. Oh, did I told you that I quit beef? Due to religion, that I decided to get serious now, I have stop taking beef for more than a year. Wow, what a big achievement! LOL...

Speaking of my work, I'm looking after a group of plantation companies, regional finances. The job requires high focus and ability to multi task and mobile. I have been traveling to some remote areas, plantation estate, and as the business expand, the job itself is so challenging and interesting. I'm enjoying it right now. Hope I can make a huge debut in this career and keeps moving up to highest level of quality.